What Is the Point?
What Is the Point?
I’ve been asking myself that question a lot lately.
I open the app, read a few posts and instead of feeling inspired, I feel… tired.
Maybe it’s not the platform. Maybe it’s me. But lately, almost everything I read feels like a performance. Even the posts about not wanting to perform can end up becoming another kind of performance. A beautifully written note about stepping away is still a note. It’s still content. It’s still asking to be seen.
Then I looked at my own writing.
Why am I doing this?
The answer wasn’t as simple as I wanted it to be.
Part of me wants to understand myself. Part of me wants to tell the truth as honestly as I can. Part of me hopes that someone reads it and thinks, Me too.
And yes, part of me wants to be seen. To know that what I wrote landed somewhere besides my own head. To know someone understood.
None of that makes me unique. It just makes the whole thing feel strangely exhausting.
We’re taking something deeply personal and handing it over to an algorithm that turns it into numbers. Hearts. Comments. Restacks. Views. Before long, it’s hard to tell whether you’re writing because you have something to say or because you’re hoping someone will say something back.
I don’t know the answer anymore.
Maybe that’s why I’ve been asking myself whether I even want to keep writing here.
Not because I don’t love writing.
Because I don’t want to lose sight of why I started.
So I’ll leave myself, and anyone who happens to read this, with the only question that still feels worth asking.
What is the point?
I’m asking myself.
You don’t have to answer.
I am grateful for you being here Chanti. You are awesome for asking why and not forcing yourself into pretending to be resilient or inspirational... That's why I appreciate you so much. The value you bring in particular is the honesty. You say the stuff I keep in my head. And it makes me feel seen and I admire your courage. You're right in that it gets tiring. And alot of what people say here is a performance. Which gets tiresome. You're a giver, and givers need rest and to be seen too. Love you, take care of yourself ❤️ x
What is the point? I'll be honest, I feel that often, I dont always feel like coming on here, I get that being present and engaging in Notes and reading and stuff is what gets you seen, but I like my engagement to be authentic, not forced, or for it to feel like a chore, so I dont come on here if Im not feeling it, thats not being lazy, thats being authentic, I'm sure I would have more subscribers, I see others grow quicker than me, but I do what is within my limits, I mean I work full time, so I cant be on here all the time, plus I actually need to live to give myself something to write about, so, yeah Im with you, I do sometimes ask myself, what is the point. And with that, I would say it is when I slow down, come on here less, no performance whatsoever, just writing, thats when I fall back in love with this place.
I would say this, Chanti, go and feel what you need to feel, this place will still be here when you get back, but know this, for me, and I'm sure for others too, your absence will be felt. I hope you find what you need right now, and I hope if you do need to step away for a bit that you return richer for your absence. 🙏